sftblcatcher125

I thought tat I could always count on u
I thought tat nothing could come b/w us 2
We said as long as we would stick together
Wed be alright
Wed be ok.

But I was stupid
n u broke me down
I'll never be the same again.

So thank u 4 showin me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
n thank u 4 lyin 2 me,
ur friendship, the good times we had u can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder y it always has 2 hurt,
4 every lesson that you have to learn.
I wont 4get wat u did 2 me,
How u showed me things I wish Id never seen.

But I was stupid,
n u broke me down,
I'll never be the same again.

So thank u 4 showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
n thank u 4 lying 2 me,
ur friendship the good times we had u can have them back

When the tables turn again,
u'll member me my friend,
u'll be wishing I was there 4 u.

I'll b the 1 you miss the most,
But u'll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
u'll wonder y,
u're all alone.

So thank u 4 showing me,
Tat best friends can not be trusted,
n thank u 4 lying 2 me,
ur friendship, the good times we had u can have them back.

So thank u - 4 lyin 2 me,
So thank u - 4 all the times u let me down
So thank u - 4 lying 2 me,
So thank u - ur friendship u can have it back


nothing new life is just going so slow

I'm not going to use live journal anymore. I'm switching it to something else if u want the address just hit me up
My Birthday is tomorrow if anybody cares but i doubt that cuz no one has really cared for the last couple of years so fuck it
pc

The Basics

1. Full Name: Wouldnt u like to know
2. Age: almost 18 in 5 days!
3. Birthday: January 25, 1987
4. Gender: Female
5. Race: white last i check
6. Height: 5'5"
7. Weight: i havent weighed myself
8. Hair Color: Blondish, brownish
9. Eye Color: Brown
10. Place of birth: Fairfax, VA


Family

11. Siblings? None
12. If you're an only child, do you want brothers or sisters? Yes, i would want brothers
13. Parent's Names? Sandy
14. If you were born the opposite sex, what would your name have been? i have no idea
15. Do you like your family? I love my family except when they lecture me about my eattin habbits
16. Ever run away from home? Nope
17. Ever thought about it? a couple of times
18. Do you feel your parents spoil you? i was spoil when i was younger but now i see the real points of life
19. Do you not get along with any of your family? Sometimes depends who it is
20. Do you have big family get togethers? No


Friends

21. Best friend (s): Brittany, Ama, Amanda, Sakeena, Daniela, and Niki
22. What do you have in common with them? pretty much everything.
23. What do you like to do with them? chill
24. Most trustworthy? All of them r trustworthy
25. Funniest? All
26. Dumbest? none
27. Smartest? Sakeena
28. Best Laugh? Brittany
29. Best Eyes? Niki and Sakeena
30. Best Hair? Me
31. Funnest to be with? All
32. If you woke up one morning and your legs were gone, who would you call first? Ama or Brittany
33. Who's the person you talk to most on the phone? Ama
34. Who do you see the most? Sakeena
35. Who have you known the longest? Sakeena
36. Do you think you're a good friend? I'd like to think so i know at times i make my mistakes.
37. The one you will always talk to no matter what? All
38. Most likely to never fall in love? None
39. The one you think secretly hates you? no one


Love Life

40. Are you in love? love makes me wanna barf
41. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
42. If so, are you in love with them? no
43. Do you have a crush? no
44. Do they know you like them? no i dont have a crush
45. How long have you liked them? never
46. Ever done anything stupid to impress them? No
47. Have you experienced unrequited love? i dont even know what unrequited means
48. Do you find it hurtful or romantic? i dunno what ur talkin about
49. Even know what it is? no
50. Are you a virgin? psh i aint telling
51. Believe that a person shouldn't have sex before marriage? yes
52. Believe in casual sex? i believe in no sex
53. When do/did you plan to lose your virginity? too many questions


The Future

54. Do you plan on having children? yes i want to have lots of kids
55. Do you plan to get married? Yes
56. How old do you want to be when you get married? after college n i'm settling down with a job
57. How old do you want to be when you have your first child? 28
58. Would you have kids before marriage? No
59. What would you name the boy? i have no idea
60. What would you name the girl? i dunno
61. Do you plan on going to college? Yes
62. If so, where do you want to go? IUP or Lynn university...down in florida
63. What do you plan on majoring in? i dont know yet i'm still thinking


Sleep

64. How do you sleep? On my back i roll alot tho
65. Do you dream at night? yes the question is do i remember the dreams?
66. Do you remember your dreams? not all the time
67. What time do you go to bed usually? 1 or 12
68. What time do you wake up normally? 6
69. Do you find waking late nice or annoying? nice
70. What time do you wake on weekends? 12 or 1
71. Do you sleep with one pillow or two? 5 pillows


Yourself

72. How old are you mentally? 20
73. Describe yourself in 5 words: saractic, happy, caring, full of energy and weird
74. What are your worst qualities: thinking negative
75. What are your best qualities: always ready for anything
76. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning? 5 minutes
77. Do you have a job? No, but I'm gonna get one soon
78. If yes, where?
79. Do you have a car? no
80. Are you funny or serious? Funny
81. Creative or not? Creative.
82. Logical thinker or lateral thinker? Logical.
83. Outgoing or shy? Outgoing really outgoing
84. Lazy or active? active n alot of lazy
85. Have you ever been hyperactive? yes
86. Are you happy with the way you look? sometimes
87. What would you change? my weight
88. Do you wear makeup regularly? No
89. Do you have a large wardrobe? yes laundry is a pain
90. If you had to rate your personality from 1 to 10? 9.874560123
91. If you had to rate your looks from 1 to 10? 5
92. Rate your style? its a style that no one else has its my style
93. How do you think other people see you? sweet


Morals

94. Have you ever been drunk? a couple of times
95. Taken drugs? no
96. Stolen? Yes
97. Shoplifted? Yes
98. Tried to commit suicide? No
99. Thought about it? Yes
100. Lied to a boyfriend/girlfriend? No
101. Gotten into a fight? Yes
102. Would you date a drug addict? Only if I could change him
103. Are you discriminatory? No
104. Have you been a hypocrite in the past? probably
105. Do you have an open or closed mind to other people's beliefs and feelings? Open


Favorites

106. Color: Black, Red, and Blue
107. Food: Salmon
108. Dessert: Cake
109. Number: 6
110. Music: Rock, Rap, Country
111. Band: Good Charlotte, AC/DC, Enimen, Blink 182, Sum 41
112. Solo Artist: John Mayer
113. Actress: i dont have a favorite one
114. Actor: Brad Pitt
115. TV Show: CSI
116. Letter: R
117. Word: Snow
118. Swear Word: cockhead
119. Day of the Week: Friday
120. Month: July
121. Season: Summer
122. Fruit: apple
123. Vegetable: Broccoli
124. Ice Cream: Chocolate chip cookie dough
125. Movie: turner n hutch
126. Cartoon: The Simpsons
127. Car: a sports car still have to think of one
128. Animal: dolphin
129. Soda: coke
130. Scent: my hairspray
131. Candy bar: snickers
132. Restaurant: TGIF
133. Day or Night: Night
134. Hot or Cold: hot


Sports

135. What's your favorite sport? Softball
136. What's your favorite sport to watch? Football
137. Do you have a favorite team of any sort? New England Patriots
138. Do you do lots of sports? kind of i guess
139. If so, what do you do? softball, running
140. Are you capable of going to the Olympics for your sport? who knows i want to
141. Ever won anything for sports? trophies


Ever ...

145. Snorted drink out of your nose? i was close to it
146. Giggled like an idiot? ya
147. Embarrassed yourself and pretended like nothing happened? Yes
148. Tripped in front of someone you liked? probably
149. Said something really stupid? Yes
150. Snorted while laughing? Yes
151. Fallen off a bed? Yes
152. Sleepwalked? no
153. Sleeptalked? no
154. Fallen for your best friend? no
155. Had thoughts and laughed, though no one understood you? Yes, all the time.
156. Been caught "doing something"? no


Tastes

157. What do you prefer in a girl/guy? honesty
158. What is a major turn on? personality
159. What is a major turn off? lies and annoyance
160. Is physical appearance important to you? No
161. Is intelligence important to you? yes


Number of ...

162. Times you had your heart broken? lost count
163. Times you've broken a heart? lots
164. Boys you've kissed? 5
165. Girls you've kissed? 0
166. Tight friends? 5
167. Scars on your body? lot i dont know what i did
168. Things in your past that you regret? lots of things
169. CD's that you own? too many


Random

170. Something important on your night stand? radio
171. Astrological Sign: Acquious
172. What do people think about you that isn't true? i dunno
173. What REALLY annoys you? people that ask too many questions
174. What movie still gives you the creeps? dont watch many scary movies
175. Do you believe in love at first sight? who knows
176. Who is your homie for life? everyone
177. Your definition of a true friend: someone who is there for you to have a shoulder to cry on, to have laughs with and someone that u can truely trust
178. What do you notice first? A person's face
179. Do you think you'll make it far in life? who knows what the future has in store
180. What's one thing everyone should always do? think long n hard

Today is a good day. its my mommy's birthday. I got her really cool pjs and now i want them too. haha. I planned a surprise party for her that the neighbors n i pulled. she was so surprised it was so cute. and today i'v been like helping her clean n i'm sooooo tired.

This whole weekend was awesome! i hung out with Sakeena alot. On friday we watched movies at my house. I got to drive to walmart. Wahoo! Saturday nothing. I wore the same clothes for so long haha. good times. i have so much laundry to do too. oh well i should last this week with clothes. Sunday We went bowling there were so many hot guys there! lol. it was me, sakeena, carl and charles. Charles is really good at bowling. i was doing really good until they put the bumpers down....it was not good after that. Then we just chilled after. today we went lazer tagging and sakeena came to my mom's party. what a crazy weekend.

I cant wait until Thursday! i want it to be thursday. I'm going SNOWBOARDING! it should be fun! at least i'll be doing something fun besides sitting at home watching bush. This week is going to go by so fast it'll be like fast. haha i dont make any sense.

well i'm gonna go paint some.

pc

i dont know how i actually have the time to write this. i've been so busy lately hanging out with people and working on my schoolwork. I dont know what to say. I'm so tired and not really in a good mood. Went running. I'm sick....great. and school isnt over. u know when i want school to be over when its over i'll probably want to go back to it. u know. ya i know randum, but its probably true. nuttin is new. its the same old same old. Actually this year has started off pretty good. started talking to people who i havent talked to in a while. been hanging out with different ppl every now and then. good times. i chilled with brittany n niki yesterday. it was fun. tomorrow i'm gonna chill with brittany so it should be fun. softball season is starting which should be lots of fun. except not the coach stinks. i really miss metcalf being there. :( well time to go bye life sucks...its not that bad actually it could be worse so i guess i just gotta be happy. even tho i dont even kno what is wrong with me. oh well. maybe its just the fact that i'm sick too. i'm gonna go call some ppl n go to sleep bye
jessie

In Class now....
This was the worst weekend yet.
1. my computer broke
2. college shit
3. have a project due friday
4. fuckin drama
5. stupid shit with people
6. today is not a good day

the only good points of this weekend is that i went snowboarding and went to a car show n hung out with Niki. She is so awesome! :) ugh i hate people right now why cuz some ppl are just ugh. well today was ok i guess. some ppl told me that it looks like i lost weight and i was just like hmmm sure. but i guess that would happen cuz i havent eatten much this weekend. i dunno now i just wasnt as hungry. I guess lately i have been in the mood to eat. well tonight is gonna be fun i'm going to metcalf to eat dinner so i should eat alot. As of right now i dont give a shit about anything. dealing with so much shit guys suck it in the ass.

22 DAYS TILL MY BIRTHDAY! I'M EXCITED! i asked my mom if we could go snowboarding n she said sure. what she doesnt know is that its on a school day. hehehehehe

ok well i need to go n do work its probably gonna be a while till i reach a computer again since mine is broken n i can use it at all it blows.

give me a call anyone who ever wants to talk

jessie

Something isn't rite
I can feel it again, feel it again
This isnt the 1st time
Tat u left me waiting

Sad excuses
n false hopes high
I saw this coming
Still I dont kno y I let u in

[Chorus]
I knew it all along
u're so predictable
I knew somethin would go wrong (Something's always wrong)
So u dont have to call
Or say anything at all
u're so predictable (So Predictable)

So take ur empty words
ur broken promises
n all the time u stole
Cuz I am done w/this
I could give it away, give it away
Im doing everything I should've
n now Im takin a chance
Im livin' the day
Im givin back wat u gave me
I dont need anything

[Chorus]
        
Everywhere I go
Every1 I meet
Every time I try to fall in love
They all wanna know y Im so broken
y am I so cold
y Im so hard inside
y am I scared
Wat am I afraid of
I dont even kno
This story never had an end
Ive been waitin
Ive been searchin
Ive been hopin
Ive been dreamin u would come back
But I kno the ending of this story
ure never comin back
Never (Never, Never, Never ...)

[Chorus]

Everywhere I go for the rest of my life
Every1 I love
Every1 I care about
Theyre all gonna wanna kno what's wrong w/me
n I kno wat it is
Im ending this right now


fuck it

Wow what a day. I cant believe that it is really over. Christmas. pretty soon it will be 2005!!!!! WAHOOOOOO! then in no time it'll be softball season and then graduation! then Prom! oh my goodness! so much. well for christmas i didnt really get much. I usually dont get that much for christmas, i'm just glad that i get to be with my family because who knows how much longer they will be around.

i also talked to Brittany today. its been a while since i talk her. She got surgury yesterday n the day before. hopefully she's ok. i dropped her gift at her sisters house on thursday i think. she was at the airport going home to visit her family for the holidays. i hope that she's ok she couldnt eat for a week. it was her gallbladder that was having problems then also her kidney stones. it stinks but i'm just glad that she is ok now.

here are some of the things that i got

~$230 (i think i'm gonna get a new cell phone with that)
~a pop corn popper
~pjs
~earings
~necklaces
~a shopping trip
~camera time with my grandpa
~a hair dyer
~gum
~books
~a squicky pillow
~a light of some kind....i think it's cool :)

I cant wait until next week. I hope i go skiing or snowboarding. ya today i didnt do much did a puzzle with my aunt which too like 5 hours no joke 430-730. ok 4 hours i was a little off. i went to kate's house n said hi to her folks and talk about christmas. hopefully tonight i'll see brian. havent seen too much of him he's working alot like 12 hour days. it sucks hopefully he'll call soon and we can hang out some. i already gave him his gift he hasnt given me mine yet. thats the only gift that i need to get from someone oh and Ama too. well i'm gonna go watch the sound of music. i like singing along with the songs.

Merry Christmas.

Jessie

Wow today def. sucked ass. got paint on my shirt in photo. in jaynes class it was so fuckin hot i almost passed out.5th period didnt do anything. n in 7th period tried to sleep, but it didnt work :( And then today afterschool i didnt nothing cuz i thought brian was gonna come over but he didnt. oh well its ok i talked to nicky and found out stuff about our past like that we knew each other omg it was so funny. glad that i talked to her she seems nice. oh then my cat peed on my backpack....i hate him now. stupid scout! went to fresh fields with my mom. she gave me some wine...it wasnt that good. i got my cerfew extended for christmas eve! :) midnight baby! lol. came home n talked to brian...:) that so made my day.

well i'm gonna go to sleep
nite
Jess

dude i'm so bored. sitting here all alone and thinking of how much i miss brian :(. theres nothing to do at my house. i wish i had video games or suttin cuz i cant think of a single thing to do right now. i cant go anywhere cuz there arnt any close places. and theres no one i can chill with. everyone is busy doing things. i just want this day to be over i want everything to be over. i just want it all to end and just be able to see brian. but i guess things happen for a reason. i guess i just cant get anything and everything that i want. o well